drowning-in-options, can’t-even-think meltdown

hola Reader!

i had a full-on meltdown this week

like, messy crying on the floor, drowning-in-options, can’t-even-think meltdown

i’ve been trying to plan a million things at once:

🎯 moving out of my apartment📦
✈️ booking my flight back to Canada for the summer
🏠 updating my landlord and manifesting i get my deposit back
👗 wondering how i suddenly have SO much stuff when i used to live out of a 30L backpack
📦 donating things, closing loops, life admin, ALL the things

and my brain was doing that thing where it spins in a hundred directions and makes everything feel urgent and impossible at the same time

i honestly felt like i was drowning ...

like i should just be able to “get my ish together”

but after crying it out (and texting my sister / bestie / mentor to remind me i’m am not, in fact, a walking disaster 🙃)

i took a deep breath and tried something different:

i stopped trying to solve the whole puzzle at once

instead, i laid out all the pieces (literally i wrote all the things onto tiny pieces of paper and spread them out on the table like a puzzle)

i looked at what i could actually control

and picked one corner to start with.

slowly … piece by piece … the overwhelm softened

i booked the flight. messaged the landlord. moved a few things forward.

and most importantly: i reminded myself that just because it feels hard, doesn’t mean i’m not capable.

so if your brain has felt noisy too -

if you’ve been feeling like you’re behind or failing or flailing through the fog

firstly, you're not alone!

and here is your loving reminder:

✨ you’re allowed to pause
✨ you’re allowed to cry
✨ you’re allowed to take it one thing at a time

lay the puzzle pieces on the table

pick one that feels doable

and trust that the rest will come together as you take tiny action steps forward!

you’re doing so much better than you think, babe!

with love,

SNAPSHOT OF MY LIL LIFE IN COLOUR 🎨

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Wellness

my body decided a few days before i fly internationally for a massive conference was the perfect time to become allergic to my lash extensions i've been getting for 1.5 years ...

so i spent another few days with ice and tea bags on my eyeballs crying and having an identity crisis, which i'm not (mostly) over!

here's one of my fave quick n dirty practices that helps me see where to channel my energy when i feel like a mess!:

> FREE Simple Energy Audit <

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Wanderlust

i'm curating outfits for my conference in Texas, which will be my first of two trips in the next few weeks because i've officially booked my flight back to Canada for the summer!

so i'm focusing on this conference this week, then packing up my entire apartment, putting my belongings in storage, and going to good ol Ontario to visit friends and family while the weather is actually decent there!

peep IG for travel updates! 🌴

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Working On

i made what felt like a huge decision to not launch my Pep Talk Portal offer, because what i realized is ... it's actually the vibe i've been craving for my Self Love Experiment Membership

so0o there are some glow ups on the horizon, and all i know right now is that there will be voice notes, pep talks, and more of a chat style vibe vs emails!

so if you're feeling called to some self care + magic mindset support ... peep the membership while the price is still $11/month!

>> WEEKLY VIBE CHECKS <<

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