hola Reader!

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i got a flashing notification this weekend for a flight i thought i'd forgotten to cancel

turns out it was just my calendar event for the flight i was originally supposed to take back from Mexico for my annual summer in Canada

(i forgot to delete the calendar event, but DID remember to cancel the actual flight so crisis averted!)

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instead, in April, i got a call that my Dad had gone "missing"

turns out, he had fallen and broken his leg + needed emergency (dangerous for him) surgery, and health professionals hadn't called to update us yet

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i packed up my entire life in Mexico as quickly as i possibly could, put everything in storage, and flew back to Canada

i got to spend a whole week with my Dad in the hospital, feeling surprisingly hopeful after his surgery

... until he went into respiratory distress overnight and passed away within about an hour of my sister and i arriving in the morning 😭

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the last three months have been ... a lot.

funeral arrangements, death certificates, lawyers, probate

learning how to maintain a house and a pool

and navigating grief ambushes while trying to clear out a lifetime of belongings from both of my parents and two sets of grandparents

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i've also had some really beautiful moments:

• quality time with my sister
• a Blue Jays game
• pottery painting
• pilates pool Princess vibes

i also celebrated my birthday in a soft, nourishing way (which also fell on Mother's Day this year, bringing up a whole other wave of grief since my Mom also died four years ago)

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so, where am i at now?

i feel happy, and grateful

yet i also feel that all of my energy is accounted for right now.

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and one thing i've realized is that my direct honesty sometimes shocks people

when they ask "how are you?" and i answer honestly, they often assume it means i'm emotionally devastated or feeling "shitty"

but that's not at all how i actually feel (most of the time)!

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emotionally, i feel happy 90% of the time, genuinely enjoying my days, the sunshine, and the quality time i'm getting to spend with my sister

but logistically? my brain's feels like it's in overdrive, constantly juggling a LOT of balls

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my Moon (and Mars, and DC, and Chiron 🌊) are ALL in Cancer (and today is the New Moon in Cancer!)

so i am VERY familiar with navigating big feelings

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and when people ask "how are you?" i sometimes don't know how to answer

it truly depends on the moment and whether they're asking about my emotional state or my To Do List! 😂

and lately i've been feeling like it also depends on what depth of an answer they're actually ready to hear

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facts are that i'm in my 30s and both of my parents are dead

i'm also single AF, and though i'm SO excited to marry my future husband one day

that also means i don't have a Mom to physically help me dress shop nor a Dad to physically walk me down the aisle 💔

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everything feels so multi-layered

sometimes i feel sparkly, and sometimes i feel like a pile of goo

and for me, that's all a beautiful part of the process!

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all that being said:

space and grace 💕

for me, for you, for anyone in the messy middle of life ✨

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with so much love,

PS speaking of embracing our messy, beautiful journeys and safe spaces to just BE - come join me in the WOW Membership - you're invited and i'd love to SEE and celebrate you 💕

hola, i'm Kerri Leigh 💕 Self Love & Transformational Travel Coach + Catalyst guiding sensitive souls to follow their happy and live a (guilt free) life on purpose too! ✨ instagram | 2026 Journal Prompts | Dream ​Life Workshop ✨ join the WOW Membership 💕for weekly vibe checks & loving reminders to celebrate your WINS so you feel productive & proud!

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